Ok Lord, here we go. Every time I do this, it is clearer and clearer that getting to work and leaning on you to do it means putting my flesh to death. At this early stage of the journey, it can seem to get a bit old and like it’s not doing anything. My focus is just to get through the project or assignment, and not on anything beyond. But even now, even this moment, I am realizing how good it is to die to the flesh, how even this mundane task can be used to make me more like Christ, that every time I do this, I do in fact bear fruit that lasts. It’s not the research itself that will last. That will pass away with heaven and earth. But this transformation, and the fruit that comes from this pruning, that will last. And I cannot do it without you, truly I cannot. You said so, and that is more than enough. But I also see it in my heart, that at best in my own power, pride and obligation would drive me forward, hardening my heart and benefiting no one. And the grace that tops it off like a cherry and whipped cream – your wisdom gives me insight, focus and creativity that I simply do not have on my own.
Therefore Lord, let us endeavor together. Help me bend my mind to this task, taking captive distracting and disobedient thoughts, lighting my path with clarity and wisdom and insight, amen.
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